PAY OFF!!!

all the studying, waking up early, attending class (most of the time), hw doing, so on and so on finally paid off. i recieved a 3.4 for this semester! YAY ME. k i'm happy that made my christmas. and now a new year is slowling approaching ...

reality check

THINGS CHANGE. no matter how hard you try to stop change, it'll take place. that's how it's meant to be, life. i've just realized that i've let things passed me by because of work and school i haven't had time for other things. i wish it was within my control to turn back time or to even slow it down. but obviously time isn't something i can control. yeah i'm sad very, very sad. i'm hoping that this change won't create distance, or if it already has that we'll be able to make up for it. and hopefully, even with change some things will remain the same. i'm just wishing that the memories i have aren't going to be the only thing i'm left with. i miss him .....

very satisfying

school is really close to being over, i just need to attend three classes for finals then this semester will come to an end! wow reyna and i saw each other four days a week for seventeen weeks straight! ahahhahah i'm surprised we don't hate each other by now. but i love her!!!!! i'm really excited to not have to worry about school, waking up early and HOMEWORK for a month! but what sucks is i start school in Grossmont in like three weeks :( oh well you got to do what you got to do ...

other than that i'm trying not to think about lisa moving down to san diego. ugh it makes me sad, whatever i'll write about that later. peace and love.

pretty surprising

so last night, while i was closing at wet seal my manager played the entire new Britney Spears and i loved the whole CD! also, i saw a shooting star last night but i was so astonished after seeing it that i wasn't able to make a wish -__- JUST MY LUCK! gah. oh yeah, i just discovered i'm able to work a nine hour shift with just an hour of sleep. super! other than that, i'm super happy that i only have eight more days of school, yay.

what a wait

we all waited for 13 long hours to register for a health essentials class down in Grossmont. we waited in the freezing cold, slept on the sidewalk, waited in long lines and starved for many hours! but it all paid off, we are all going to start class in january to become CNA's. yeah, just get on our level (one day) ahahahha.

Twilight

i will never ever forget the night i went to the theatres to watch a midnight showing ! reyna and i got tickets to see the midnight showing of Twilight and decided to head to the theatres early to get good seats. so we left around 8:30pm and got there with 3048734 people already in line ahead of us. we walked around the whole theatre and ended up right next to our parking spot -____- it's for sure an experience that i will tell my kids hahahaha. plus, reyna almost had a near-death experience because a fence fell on her (hahahahah lol?) then later on that night i thought of a plan to sneak jessica in, then we waited two hours in the theatres with the feelings of anxiousness, excitement and happiness! but to be honest, the movie could've been 3x as better if they took the time. it went by way too fast for anyone to grasp the love edward and bella has for each other. but i'm still glad they made it, now i have faces to the characters while i read Twilight for the 6th time (:

oh yeah mark and i watched it a second time yesterday and lol HE LOVED IT <3

thank goodness

there are still kind people out there! i just got another iPhone today, and i really appreciate the guy who helped me out at cingular because instead of paying full price, i only had to pay half (:

laughing time

who'd i'd like to meet

oh yeahhhhh

I GOT MY TWILIGHT TICKET! well reyna and i made it in time to get tickets to sit in the last theatre for the midnight showing. and i'm stoked to camp out lol for a few hours! i canNOT wait, almost there ...

no words necessary

it's been a while

since i've had a day with no school, work or plans. it felt good not worrying about the time while i was asleep but for some reason i couldn't sleep any longer. i'm bored but yet relaxed at the same time. i loveeee the feeling that you have no where to go, or do. idk i'm weird i guess.

so this past week went by with a quickness, well every week at school is starting to feel like that because we have like five weeks left. yay for me and reyna. but yeah so i have a story to tell (because i'm pretty sure reyna will tell all my friends anyway) on wednesday, november 12th, reyna and i decided to watch the HYD movie at her house. so i arrived promptly at her house and went up to her room. i requested a pair of shorts so i'm comfortable while watching the movie. she warned me that she had a candle burning on her desk, where i had laid my purse. so i took off my jeans and replaced them with her shorts. i put my jeans on top of my purse and went on to watch the movie. ten minutes into the movie, it smelled like someone was burning BBQ but after turning around to look at the candle i saw my jeans on FIRE!!!!! lol. HAHA. reyna and i jumped out of her bed and i took my jeans and threw them on the floor to stomp out the flame but that failed. we ran to the bathroom thinking of throwing water onto the flame but it went out right when we were about to turn on the faucet. i looked at the damage and there it is a big hole on the left side of my jeans :( MY FAVORITE JEANS! well yeah there's my fabulous story ....

*there is a week till TWILIGHT comes out. i'm totally stoked that i canNOT sit still when i think about it. i've been waiting so long (3 months)!!!!!!!!!!

many but not all

guys are a$$holes to the fullest! because of what i've been hearing lately, it just proves my theory correct even more. most of the girls i knw who are/were in relationships either gets screwed over, played with, or left. which is wrong. the male species never knw what they have till it's gone.

it's getting cold?

MEANING: christmas is almost here! i love it, i love the atmosphere when christmas comes around. everyone you meet gets twice as nice, well the people i seem to meet. hhaha. it's almost the end of 2008 too. wow how time flies! but yeah thinking about winter means i need to stock up on jackets, jeans, sweats, socks, boots and i need to buy some hello kitty gloves to keep my stubby fingers intact >.<

well besides the cold, i can't wait to start work at wet seal. when i was a little girl i've always pictured myself working at the mall because i'm there most of the time shopping anyway. but yeah i'm stoked to work on black friday too, even though it's gonna be a blood-fest. i've realized that working at the mall = hannah spending every paycheck on items of clothing. soooo yeah this job is gonna test my self-control, which i knw i lack of. maybe i should enroll in shopping addiction therapy!??!?! lol wait that'll cost money too that i'd rather spend shopping. SEEEEE IT'S SOO BAD. haha. i need to remind myself that i need to pay off my credit card first then go crazy shopping! but if i didn't get my iPhone stolen i could've paid half of it off but no that money is gonna go towards a whole new iPhone!!!! ugh yeah i'm still very upset about that event. whatever LIFE HAPPENS.

i've told myself that i can't let negative events that happen to me, constantly, bring me down anymore. and i'm sure getting better at it. so i'm going to start being more of a care-less person from now. eh we'll see how long that'll last. oh and another thing that hit me this week is that: real friends are hard to come by. i knw that i should've known that in like elementary school but i just thought maybe that saying wasn't so accurate, but i've been proven otherwise. so i've realized how truly blessed i am to have the friends i have. i can for sure say that without them idk where i'd be or who i would be. so, to those i consider my 'real friends' thank you for everything. you guys keep me, me, the crazy little silly girl that seems to never stop. lol.

ttya (talk to you always) haha. yeah. k.

cute obsession

well i'm totally bored, so i decided to type in "hello kitty" on flickr and come to find out there's a lot of crazy obsessions over hello kitty. well i don't blame them, hello kitty it awesomely cool. lol haa yeah i'm crazy tooo but after you see these pictures uhm you'd think otherwise ....
CHECK IT:

A CD DEDICATED TO HELLO KITTY? IT'S PUNK MUSIC?!?!?!

WOW A GUN AHAHHA FUN

THIS IS MY BATHROOM HAHA SIKE

I THINK THIS IS CUTE

VERY APPEALING, NOT.

SERIOUSLY, I WANT THIS ...

& THIS

&& THIS

WAIT THIS TOOO!

the rain don't last

right now i'm in a really happy/thankful mood, and even knwing that i failed my math test today can't bring me down!!!!!! i'm soo grateful for the job i landed at wet seal. FINALLY, everything seems to be looking up for me. i'm going to get a new iPhone on saturday and start working next sunday!

i want to thank all my friends who were there for me in my time of need, the friends who helped me get up from my fall and kept a smile on my big head! lol. i really could not have kept my head high for so long without the help from my friends and boyfriend. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!

&&it just keeps getting better

.... sikeNOT! someone stole my fckin' iPhone last night and honestly i'm really in a depressed mood. i've been trying to keep my head up but it just gets harder and harder to do so. but i'm still doing it anyways. whoever took it; KARMA is a damn bitch (excuse the language but i'm mad). ugh affjkeaoruaowfrjaf byee ttyn.

inevitablely,

when everything seems to be fine something needs to go wrong. ALL THE TIME! it happens to me alll the damn time. i want to cry for HELP, but at the same time i want to stand on my own. if it isn't one thing, it's another.

I NEED A JOB .....

wow i love laughing

this will make you smile

hahah a nugget! lol reminds me of lisa when she said, "i'm so hungry, I WANT A FRIE!!!" lol hahaha wow.

looook on the bright side

(; (: THIS WEEK: friday, HSM3 and saturday, SIXFLAGS!

yay i canNOT wait. sucks cause i work till 9 on friday but oh well i'll catch a late showing of HSM3. there's gonna be a load of little girls and maybe boys at the theatres! haha. it's gonna be soooooo cool. lol. my plan is to sneak in carne asada fries and eat in the dark theatre. haha like always.

then then then SIXFLAGS with like everyone! yay for rollercoasters that i'm super scared of but i ride it any way for that 'adrenaline rush' feeling. i love how i'm super nervous, shaky in line and then after when the ride is over i'm soo happy for conquering it! very very accomplishing. facing my biggest fear: Goliath -____- the last time, lisa and i were uhm going crazy well at least i was crying for my motheer. oh, and the ride there will be awesome because it's an 'all-girl' car for uhm two hours + more back then fourth. ahah and i wanna see lisa scream and grab me when we see the monsters at night. it'll be a blast losing our voices from screaming on the coasters and then screaming because scary people will be chasing us around.

alfjoeuaroeauroeaurouewo can this week go by already? ah gay, the week hasn't even started >.<

sooo after this week filled with: interviews, homework, work and moreee the pay off will be friday and saturday and it's worth it.

I CAN DO THIS

??? yeah yeah yeah i can. sooooooooo uhm basically the gym i work at is filled with corporate drama and i'm getting my hours cut drastically. they're allowing me to just work saturdays, uh lame! i can't pay for anything with that kind of paycheck. so i've been stressing on finding a new job when our economy is doing so bad. good timing right? yeah and the stupid owner is giving me a week to find a job. yeah okay mmhmm i'll be oh so lucky. yesterday reyna and i walked around the whole mall grabbing applications. i dread asking for applications and filling them out. but yeah i thought i was in over my head until last night i applied for jcpennys and got a call back 30 minutes after filling out my application. i went to my interview and hopefully i'll get a job there. stressing about finding a job while working still and school is very overwhelming. eh whatever i can handle it.

P.S. credit cards suck, so addicting .....

last one for today

PSH, he's soo hot no matter what anyone says! *drooooooool <3

one of those 'feel good' nights

i'm at work with just a 3 hour nap to get all my energy from and that's because i was with lisa last night -________- ahhahah. i came home from school took a nap while waiting for lisa to be done with school which was around 6 last night then we went to the best thai restaurant (i've ate at before). we were done half an hour later than got into her car and just sat there, trying to think of something to do in our sooo 'exciting' town haha. but yeah we ended up just listening to gabe bondoc just sitting there, talking about one subject and moving on to another randomly. we sat in her car for about 5 hours just talking, laughing, argueing and everything else. looking back we never once stopped to think about a new subject, there are never any dull moments when the two of us together. it feels good to knw that i have a friend like her, a friend i can honestly tell everything to. i can even tell her my most embarrassing moments knwing that she'll laugh at me but i knw she wouldn't go around telling every person she knws. i absolutely adore her, i'm so glad she came into my life. i'm so happy that we got closer this past year and especially summer. she's such a good friend too, she's that type of friend that if she knws you need her help she'll go out of her way and do the best she can. i just love that girl. she's one of those friends that i say, 'i won't go unless lisa goes' and vice versa. no matter where we go we make it into one of those 'feel good' nights. wow 5 hours in her freakin' car lol we could of drove to vegas. lol (random thought).

wow i really can't wait

let's just do it

like they said, just vote! this is a once in a lifetime ordeal. this is history that will be remembered forever and we can be a part of it. put in an effort to make a 'change'. THE FUTURE BELONGS TO US. the financial debt that we are supposedly in is our responsibility to get out of even if we had nothing to do with it; we are the ones who are going to pay for their mistakes. this election can change our future drastically. if you don't vote, don't complain ...

three more years?

hopefully, reyna and i will be living in one of these while going to school in SDSU. gah drooool just drool man, i love it!

EL OH EL

that's what happens to reyna when we work out together,

dumb whore! hahahahha love yous wifey.

if only ...

i can take the pain from all the people i love and put it upon myself,
i would.

i wish i could take the hardship that my mom is facing and

carry them myself. i wish i could take the physical

pain my auntie/grandma are going through and

face it myself. i wish i could take the heartbreak that my

friend(s) is feeling and experience it myself. i wish my family

can be put into a bubble away from reality so nothing, no one can hurt them.

i wish i could take the pain, hurt, troubles, stress away ...

i wish i could help in some way ...

IF ONLY.

when i say 'family' i mean everyone i care for. i consider my REAL friends as part of my family. i can't help but feel pain when i see the people i love go through pain. my family is the reason i keep going some days. they're the ones that help me see that life isn't that bad after all. they give me a reason to smile and laugh, actually they're the reason why. i love you ...

hahah project runway

fast forward to 3:12

taxes

-_- suucckkkkk yeah yeah

TGIF

well basically it's my second friday, cause i consider my thursdays a friday tooo!! but yeah yeah yeah it's payday baby. finallyyyyy first paycheck from my new job, i worked my butt off so i should be getting much dinero. but yeah i'm so glad it's friday no school, no hw. feels good.

would you be my friend?!?

.. IF MY FUTURE SCION TC WAS THIS COLOR?!?!

tell me that isn't pretty. actually i think its super hot. lol. i want my car to reflect me, what more than a pink car? pshhhhh that screams, HANNAH!! it's either that or i'm going to get a pearl white paint job and get baby pink rims. lol we'll seeeee in just nine months.

lol lmao rofl

sleep deprivation

is what i've been experiencing for the last two and a half weeks. with my new job + school + hanging out with my friends i haven't had a good night sleep in a long time. i've the type of person who CAN sleep in till the sun goes down, some might call it hibernation! i use to get headaches from the results of sleeping too long lol. basically, i miss it ... A LOT. i want to skip school today so bad and just go home after work and knock the efffff out but my conscious won't allow me to -_- yeah sucks sucks sucks. well the event from last night was worth my sleep deprivation but still i feel so weak like i'm just going through the motions. sometimes i wonder where all my energy comes from? i know it isn't from monsters, rockstars, energy shots etc.. okay okay i'm going to try and sneak in a 10 min. power nap at work right now, peace.

go get them

goals, goals, goals. before i go to UCI in two years these are the items of my desire:

NIKON D60

MACBOOK AIR

&&& of course my own car<333

OMG, almost there ..

ugh ughh ughhh!!

is all i seem to hear at work lol. the sounds dudes make when their lifting weights is really amusing to me. there's this one old guy who comes in every other day who lifts like 398347 lbs and he makes the weirdest noise ever, like he can't get something out .... if you know what i mean lol (: but yeah i've also noticed that whenever 'teenage guys' work out they stare at themselves constantly and flex their muscles in the mirrors. lol and when i glance at them they just try and brush it off, how embarrassing. it sucks how i can't eat fast food at work because i'd feel bad if they had to smell the juicy-ness of my carls jr burger. that's the downside about this job i have to wait about 5 hrs to eat some real food. oh well, at least i won't get fat working here unlike wings and things where i seemed to eat all the leftovers and bread in the oven -_- yeah thank goodness. last night there wasn't anyone working out from 7 to 8 so i was just laying down on the work-out thingys and watching the disney channel, HAHAH!

twilight

i can't believe i've re-read all four books of the series about 3 times already!!!!! lol its soo addicting. angelo's always asking if i get bored with reading the same book with already having the knowledge of whats going to happen but honestly it doesn't get old to me. after i'm done reading the fourth book again i'm itching to read the first all over again! i'm weird i guess -_- lol but yeah GIRLS if you haven't gotten a chance to swap a book and read it, you're totally missing out. it's the best love story there is.

besides that i've been pretty busy lately. i have ZERO time for myself. hopefully it slows down so i can get a chance to take a breather. i miss having those days where i'm dead bored at home contemplating on how to entertain myself. i realllllyyy miss going out with lisa and having the randomest trips ever. i'm dying to visit my daddy at the same time. only if i had the money to do so ....

painkillers

... are saving me from the pain of my belly button piercing! wow i never expected it to hurt that bad. speaking of painkillers, my main whores and i are off to vegas for reyna's birthday get away so peace and love (:

i do not 'gaf'

that is my mood at the moment or for the past few days. i'm really not trying to take anything seriously besides school and work. the other things are like whatever. for example the problems i should be dealing with and facing; i'm currently not putting any thought into. i guess i'm just sick of taking everything soo serious and i'm trying to just live a little!! i can't wait till this weekend, vegas here we come! a get away with my closest girls is a mandatory at this time. yeeeee yee yeee.

working hard?

psh, hardly working jigga jigga!!!! i'm at work and i can go on the computer??!!? wow what a change. i'm so used to working super hard to earn money but now i'm just 'chillin' ahha(:

out with the old, in with the new

well yesterday was my last night working for wings and things which is so bittersweet. bitter; because i'm going to miss all my co-workers. they're like my second family because wings and things was like my second home. they knew how to turn my day right side up without any effort. they all knew how to make me laugh when i was down and out. ugh ugh ugh i'm going to miss them. for the year and a half that i've worked there i've developed so many lifetime friendships and that period of time is going stay with me for life. sweet; because i found a job that is so effort-less and a plus side i'll get pay way more thank heavens! OH oh and today was my first day at my new job and yeah it's kinda early because i worked from 5 - 730 am and now i'm here bored waiting for reyna to go to mikeydee's to get me some food and then off to school. HAPPY BIRTHDAY REYNA! wow she's finally legal now we can bring here clubbing lol!!!!

got to get my heart back

august 18th, 2008
a new beginning from a painful end <3

it's a thing called 'life'

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender. We're in the best of times and the worst of times.