inevitablely,

when everything seems to be fine something needs to go wrong. ALL THE TIME! it happens to me alll the damn time. i want to cry for HELP, but at the same time i want to stand on my own. if it isn't one thing, it's another.

I NEED A JOB .....

wow i love laughing

this will make you smile

hahah a nugget! lol reminds me of lisa when she said, "i'm so hungry, I WANT A FRIE!!!" lol hahaha wow.

looook on the bright side

(; (: THIS WEEK: friday, HSM3 and saturday, SIXFLAGS!

yay i canNOT wait. sucks cause i work till 9 on friday but oh well i'll catch a late showing of HSM3. there's gonna be a load of little girls and maybe boys at the theatres! haha. it's gonna be soooooo cool. lol. my plan is to sneak in carne asada fries and eat in the dark theatre. haha like always.

then then then SIXFLAGS with like everyone! yay for rollercoasters that i'm super scared of but i ride it any way for that 'adrenaline rush' feeling. i love how i'm super nervous, shaky in line and then after when the ride is over i'm soo happy for conquering it! very very accomplishing. facing my biggest fear: Goliath -____- the last time, lisa and i were uhm going crazy well at least i was crying for my motheer. oh, and the ride there will be awesome because it's an 'all-girl' car for uhm two hours + more back then fourth. ahah and i wanna see lisa scream and grab me when we see the monsters at night. it'll be a blast losing our voices from screaming on the coasters and then screaming because scary people will be chasing us around.

alfjoeuaroeauroeaurouewo can this week go by already? ah gay, the week hasn't even started >.<

sooo after this week filled with: interviews, homework, work and moreee the pay off will be friday and saturday and it's worth it.

I CAN DO THIS

??? yeah yeah yeah i can. sooooooooo uhm basically the gym i work at is filled with corporate drama and i'm getting my hours cut drastically. they're allowing me to just work saturdays, uh lame! i can't pay for anything with that kind of paycheck. so i've been stressing on finding a new job when our economy is doing so bad. good timing right? yeah and the stupid owner is giving me a week to find a job. yeah okay mmhmm i'll be oh so lucky. yesterday reyna and i walked around the whole mall grabbing applications. i dread asking for applications and filling them out. but yeah i thought i was in over my head until last night i applied for jcpennys and got a call back 30 minutes after filling out my application. i went to my interview and hopefully i'll get a job there. stressing about finding a job while working still and school is very overwhelming. eh whatever i can handle it.

P.S. credit cards suck, so addicting .....

last one for today

PSH, he's soo hot no matter what anyone says! *drooooooool <3

one of those 'feel good' nights

i'm at work with just a 3 hour nap to get all my energy from and that's because i was with lisa last night -________- ahhahah. i came home from school took a nap while waiting for lisa to be done with school which was around 6 last night then we went to the best thai restaurant (i've ate at before). we were done half an hour later than got into her car and just sat there, trying to think of something to do in our sooo 'exciting' town haha. but yeah we ended up just listening to gabe bondoc just sitting there, talking about one subject and moving on to another randomly. we sat in her car for about 5 hours just talking, laughing, argueing and everything else. looking back we never once stopped to think about a new subject, there are never any dull moments when the two of us together. it feels good to knw that i have a friend like her, a friend i can honestly tell everything to. i can even tell her my most embarrassing moments knwing that she'll laugh at me but i knw she wouldn't go around telling every person she knws. i absolutely adore her, i'm so glad she came into my life. i'm so happy that we got closer this past year and especially summer. she's such a good friend too, she's that type of friend that if she knws you need her help she'll go out of her way and do the best she can. i just love that girl. she's one of those friends that i say, 'i won't go unless lisa goes' and vice versa. no matter where we go we make it into one of those 'feel good' nights. wow 5 hours in her freakin' car lol we could of drove to vegas. lol (random thought).

wow i really can't wait

let's just do it

like they said, just vote! this is a once in a lifetime ordeal. this is history that will be remembered forever and we can be a part of it. put in an effort to make a 'change'. THE FUTURE BELONGS TO US. the financial debt that we are supposedly in is our responsibility to get out of even if we had nothing to do with it; we are the ones who are going to pay for their mistakes. this election can change our future drastically. if you don't vote, don't complain ...

three more years?

hopefully, reyna and i will be living in one of these while going to school in SDSU. gah drooool just drool man, i love it!

EL OH EL

that's what happens to reyna when we work out together,

dumb whore! hahahahha love yous wifey.

if only ...

i can take the pain from all the people i love and put it upon myself,
i would.

i wish i could take the hardship that my mom is facing and

carry them myself. i wish i could take the physical

pain my auntie/grandma are going through and

face it myself. i wish i could take the heartbreak that my

friend(s) is feeling and experience it myself. i wish my family

can be put into a bubble away from reality so nothing, no one can hurt them.

i wish i could take the pain, hurt, troubles, stress away ...

i wish i could help in some way ...

IF ONLY.

when i say 'family' i mean everyone i care for. i consider my REAL friends as part of my family. i can't help but feel pain when i see the people i love go through pain. my family is the reason i keep going some days. they're the ones that help me see that life isn't that bad after all. they give me a reason to smile and laugh, actually they're the reason why. i love you ...

hahah project runway

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